Hello enormous listening world. For the comfort of others, please refrain from using the toilets whenever we're stationary.
Buy for comfort, buy for kicks
Recently I happened upon a Facebook Marketplace offering that was actually good. A fella, in my local area, was selling a big collection of Henry Rollins / Rollins Band books, CDs, and cassettes AND at prices that weren't silly. I met up with him on a cold Canberra evening and came home with a book, some CDs, and a double cassette. I'll talk about the book in a future episode because I need to spend time reading it. The real gem of the lot was a live CD that usually goes for the same amount I paid for the whole bundle. The Rollins Band ripping it up on stage in The Netherlands. The double cassette is Henry reading selections from his early tour diary, published as Get In The Van. I'll stay away from Marketplace for a long while now but this purchase was a real bonanza!
Hard-Ons with Henry Rollins - Let There Be Rock - https://youtu.be/FMzowawbDbk
Some got pollution, some revolution
You may have guessed that I like to write. I think a lot about what to write when I'm out on my daily walks, when I'm riding the light rail, or in the shower. I have been tempted to turn it into a podcast but the reality is, I wouldn't be able to play any of the music as part of that without paying licensing fees. Oftentimes these episodes live in my head as a radio show akin to that of Henry Rollins or Bob Dylan but they can stay there. Unlike many other bloggers, writers, podcasters and dare I say it, influencers (vomited in my mouth there), I actually pay attention to the creative output of others. My good mate Dave Macca has recently taken steps to return to writing via his blog. Macca can read more books, and remember what they are about, than anyone I know. To top it all off, he has a talent for speaking, and writing that makes stuff interesting and accessible to a wide variety of readers. Check him out here. Minds are for expanding.
Belle and Sebastian - Wrapped Up In Books - https://youtu.be/iBU-MxydbWQ
Jaws was never my scene
Cycling. There, I said it. I've now ridden my bike three times in the last three weeks. Before anyone feels the need to tell me to be careful, to rug up, and not to overdo it; yep I am aware and I understand. My days of long, long rides are over for the foreseeable future if not forever. After more than a year of rehab, and a lot of bad words said under my breath, I am allowed to ride for about 30 minutes at a time once or twice a week. The first two times I went out were nerve wracking to say the least, but other than a minor twinge in one of my glutes, they seemed to go reasonably well. Yesterday I went out for a trundle with Toddo and that was totally awesome. We cruised in the sun wearing our full winter riding kit, talked non-stop, and it all felt good. This was also the first time I'd worn cycling gear in a long while and it still fits! More on that later. My plan is to be able to ride approximately 50km once a week with my mates, as well as a couple of shorter rides. Given that I used to push out 300km a week, the mindset change involved is, and continues to be huge.
Miranda Lambert - Gravity Is A Bitch - https://youtu.be/WnxfVJd4VzM
The sounds of the city, baby, seem to disappear
Recently I've been helping a local band to set up their sound production by attending rehearsals and a gig to do some mixing. I've also been assisting with in-ear monitors (IEMs). Essentially IEMs replace the big speakers that point at the band so that they can hear themselves. A lot of musicians have significant hearing loss because those monitors need to be loud to compete with a drum kit, the lead guitarist's 100 watt Marshall stack, the bass player's personal hygiene issues, and the singer's ego. IEMs, which are glorified earbuds, provide each band member with their own dedicated mix at a volume level that they themselves can manage on the fly if they want to. What I notice with the band I am assisting is how much better they sounded as a unit once the IEMs were in place. The drummer commented that for the first time ever he genuinely could hear what was going on. I wish these had been readily available when I was a gigging musician.
Jason Isbell & The 400 Unit - Can't You Hear Me Knocking - https://youtu.be/6Ep-rIAe2Ho
With my back to the riser, I make my stand
I haven't played a guitar for more than a minute or two in over a year. It's not that I haven't wanted to, I just haven't been in anything remotely approaching the right headspace. I hear songs and think I should learn them. I have people both encouraging me and inviting me to play. I know it's good for me and I love it but, it's just not been happening. Last week I needed to have a bit of an intervention that was led by me along with some gentle pushing from two of my colleagues. You see, what happened, or at least what crept up on me, was that I had stopped eating. Not totally, because I am still here, but enough to be a major concern. It's a road I've been a long way down before but I haven't really had a relapse for a couple of years. And what happened? Well exactly what you'd expect; I started to feel that I was struggling at work, my mental health suffered, and there were a few other clear markers as well. It's a vicious cycle because I placate the voice in my head by not eating much. Then my brain can't function properly and the voice of reason and logic hasn't got enough energy to do its thing. Which brings me back to cycling. I was convinced that none of my cycling gear would fit yesterday and I almost cancelled the ride. Guess what, it fitted just fine, and probably the way it always did. Having others encouraging me to eat doesn't work, in fact it makes things worse. What I seem to be able to do, with the benefit of ongoing therapy and gentle understanding from others, is to re-convince my brain that being healthy and eating properly go hand in hand. When I get that mix right then I can manage to have good things in my life; like playing the guitar and leaving the house. So, without wanting to put unnecessary pressure on myself, I'm going to take some of that stubbornness and willpower that the eating disorder uses to be unhelpful, and try to channel it into something positive. The song a day playlist works and is up to over 200 entries, and I can manage my back and core exercises four times a day without fail, so I'm going to try to do some regular strumming and picking. Watch this space.
Lux Lisbon - Get Some Scars - https://youtu.be/D13lu3aajjo
I think I've said enough. See you next time for another random set of ramblings.
The Woozle
"Poor old Johnnie Ray,
Sounded sad upon the radio,
Moved a million hearts in mono..."
Sugarland & Sara Bareilles, Come On Eileen (live Dexy's cover), 2011.